Behind the Music
Based on a True Story
Early 2021
The Behind the Music series is based on a true story about surviving child sexual abuse and rape. The story is told through the eyes of Ariana Parker.
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Please DO NOT read if sexual abuse may trigger you.
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If you or someone you know needs assistance/information regarding sexual abuse, please contact www.rainn.org or call 1-800-656-HOPE For your local suicide hotline number, please visit www.suicidehotlines.com, http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.com or call 800-273-TALK
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If you’ve been the victim of a sexual assault, please speak with someone who is trained to help. You can call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 800.656.HOPE (4673) or chat online at online.rainn.org.
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When Everything Changed
Coming in 2021
Ariana Parker
At the age of seven,
I was thrown to learn I had been adopted. By the age of eight,
I had a monumental secret. One that left me feeling
ashamed, empty, and most of all alone. But the moment "he"
turned me down was the moment I knew I had to get out. Out of my current situation
and out of my life as I knew it. Before, I could make
that one final decision, I knew I had to face
my fears and the dangers behind them.
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Emmett Harrison
School was supposed
to be the one place I could escape the clutches of my old man, but once again I've
found myself fearing the unknown. That was until the
day I met Ariana Parker. Ariana was everything
I wasn't. Smart, brave, and most
of all strong-willed. The moment she needed
my help was the moment everything changed. It was when I knew
without a doubt I couldn't be the man she needed.
The Summer of Music
Coming in 2021
Ariana Parker
Looking to nurse her broken heart, Ariana is determined to spend summer break drowning her sorrows in the lyrics of her favourite bands.
When Zac Kellar moves into the neighbourhood, Ariana discovers a kinder gentler side underneath his tousled blond hair, piercing blue eyes, and bad-boy image. He listens with purpose and he’s honest too. While spending the summer together she comes to trust him with her secrets. Could he really be the guy she thinks she knows or is he that bad-boy after all?
Zac Kellar
Anger got the best of Zac THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL…
As the altercation lands Zac in hot water, he was lucky to avoid charges by the law but as punishment, he’s put on house arrest, Mom style. Locked down for the summer, Zac fears he’ll go stir crazy, that is until his new neighbour, Ariana Parker comes along.
Intent on ‘passing time’ with Ariana, Zac soon forgets she’s the quiet girl from school. With Ari, his bad-boy attitude fades, allowing himself to open up for the first time.
Holding on for More
Coming in 2021
TBA
My Survivor Story
Did you know the Behind the Music series is based on a True Story? My true story.
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When Everything Changed is told through the character Ariana Parker's eyes. Ariana Parker is a girl who has been sexually assaulted by her mother's boyfriend - her younger brothers father.
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In When Everything Changed, you see Ariana surviving the abuse while learning how to love.
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Here's a little more about my Survival Story:
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Why'd it go on so long people ask me... Fear.
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Every time 'he' abused me (which was almost everyday) he held all the power. I was 8 years when it first happened. I didn't understand what was happening to me at the time but I knew it was wrong and I said as much. The first time, I was told no one would believe me. The second time, I said I was going to tell the family I was living with (who raised me) out fear of getting caught, he used my religion against me. He said, sex before marriage was a sin and now I had sinned so I would no longer be accepted among my Catholic family.
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The third time it happened, he told me everyone would disown and send me away again - I was already dealing with learning I had a family I knew nothing about vs living with a family I had no real bio-logical connection too - so I was terrified about where I'd end up, so I stayed quiet and prayed for help.
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No help came though and the matter got worse. Picture a small frame being overtaken by a six foot man who out weighed me by at least 200 lbs. I fought. I cried. I kicked and punched but my small (disabled) 8 year body was no match for a man who took what he wanted.
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I was 8 when I first thought about suicide. I prayed to God to either send me help - or help me find a way out of my life and you know what happened? I saw an ANGEL. Everyone tells me it was impossible. Angel's didn't exist, but they do - on some level they do because I saw one and it gave me the strength to endure. My 'associate' family (the one who raised me up until then) took me to church, where even the priest questioned me about my sighting. When I challenged his logic, he couldn't give me a straight answer and it made me questioned my religion all together - how could I trust a priest who didn't believe me or the fact that God spoke to me.
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Lost and confused at such a young age, I continued to fight every time he abused me. I kept saying I was going to tell someone. That he couldn't get away with it forever but that only fuelled him further. He became violent. Pinned me down. Strangled me out and threatened to kill my 'associate' family with the gun he kept in the shed. I was a sheltered kid back then and didn't know it was a paint gun.
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Fast forward a few years, my sister came forward. I had no idea the same thing was happening to her. I never even considered it. I just thought I was being targeted because I was new to the family and he could use me because of my disability.
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Needles to say, I'm a survivor. I've had & still have PTSD. I have anxiety (which I can usually manage) trust & abandonment issues. I don't let people close and I barely share myself (my likes, what I'm passionate about etc) because I was taught I wasn't important. That the things I wanted or accomplished were nothing. Even to this day, I still doubt myself. I still worry about putting myself out there but I do it anyway because I refuse to hide any longer.
